Wednesday, 30 April 2014

Heal the Wound but Leave the Scar

I used to wish that I could rewrite history
I used to dream that each mistake could be erased
Then I could just pretend
I never knew the me back then

I used to pray that You would take this shame away
Hide all the evidence of who I've been
But it's the memory of
The place You brought me from
That keeps me on my knees
And even though I'm free

Heal the wound but leave the scar
A reminder of how merciful You are
I am broken, torn apart
Take the pieces of this heart
And heal the wound but leave the scar

I have not lived a life that boasts of anything
I don't take pride in what I bring
But I'll build an altar with
The rubble that You've found me in
And every stone will sing
Of what You can redeem

Heal the wound but leave the scar
A reminder of how merciful You are
I am broken, torn apart
Take the pieces of this heart
And heal the wound but leave the scar

Don't let me forget
Everything You've done for me
Don't let me forget
The beauty in the suffering

Heal the wound but leave the scar
A reminder of how merciful You are
I am broken, torn apart
Take the pieces of this heart
And heal the wound but leave the scar


as sung by Wes Hampton

Friday, 20 December 2013

The Poison of Bitterness

In 2012, a situation at home arose which meant I become quite bitter towards the people involved - particularly Mum.  I was hoping that by being bitter towards these people I would somehow hurt them but I only succeeded in injuring myself, although no doubt these people were injured as well.
The Lord kept tapping on my shoulder all year trying to tell me to let go of my bitterness and let forgiveness reign in my heart instead, but I refused to let go and instead dug my heels in deeper.
In January 2013, I went to the "a passion for Jesus" camp in Sydney and one of the first messages was about bitterness and letting it go and forgiving those you're bitter against.
It was then that my heart was finally broken and I saw the seriousness of bitterness and I knew I had to let my own bitterness go and that I had to forgive the people who had hurt me - particularly Mum.
I went to a quiet spot and wept tears as I did business with the Lord. I finally let go of my deep bitterness and the freedom, joy and peace that followed was unbelievable... I couldn't believe that I had been so stubborn to hang onto my bitter feelings for so long!! I immediately wrote a letter to Mum asking her for forgiveness which I posted a few days later.
I do still struggle with bitterness rising in my heart from time to time and I am always tempted to hold on to it but I know that it is not worth it and that the best path to follow is the path of forgiveness, which is the path I endeavor to follow every time.
It is not always easy to forgive, especially when the hurt experienced - whether it's real or imagined - is very painful. But as something that I read once says along these lines is that bitterness is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die - and it is so true!! The only person who gets hurt through bitterness I'd yourself.  So may I encourage each and every one of you dear girls - I'd there is any bitterness in your heart at the moment - let it go! And instead forgive the person who has hurt you. Don't cling onto your bitter feelings because they will only hurt YOU. Bitterness not only hurts you but it hurts your relationships - not only with the people around you but also with the Lord and it's not worth it. Forgiveness is the best thing... Although painful at first, it only provides freedom and joy... Bitterness doesn't hurt at first but eventually it brings great pain and hurt.
I don't know about you, but I choose forgiveness - not only for today but for every day.
 
~Bethany

Thursday, 17 October 2013

Update

Wow!!! Time has definitely flown by the past few months!! I feel like I hardly know what has been happening the last few months, they have gone that swiftly!!

But here a few photos to give you a brief overview of what has been happening in this second half of the year for me!!

YOUTH CAMP, CRYSTAL CREEK CHRISTIAN CAMP - JULY, 2013


MATTHEW AND I GOT TO GO TO A LIVE AFL FOOTY GAME 
AT THE GOLD COAST.....Gold Coast vs Melbourne

NATIONAL BAPTIST FELLOWSHIP MEETINGS, ADELAIDE



ANDRE RIEU CONCERT, BRISBANE
some very dear friends of mine bought tickets for Matt and I to be able to go to Andre Rieu's concert last weekend. We were 5 rows from the front it was absolutely amazing!!




Thursday, 15 August 2013

Much Delayed Post

Greetings to all, and my sincerest apologies for not posting on here sooner......time has got away from me far too quickly. :/

The last few months have indeed been very busy for me, with Bible College and work - between the 2 there doesn't leave much leisure time :( but I am learning so much at College, and I wouldn't swap it for anything.

The month of July was our mid-year holidays, and my brother Matthew and I went home for 3 weeks, which we thoroughly enjoyed as it meant we got to see Mum as well as catch up with other friends. It was especially nice to see Mum again as we hadn't seen her since January and it was the longest period of time that we hadn't seen her.

The church we are at, is preparing for their annual Bible Conference (Encouraging a Passion for God Conference), and I, for one, am looking forward to being challenged and convicted :) Prayer would be appreciated, that God would be working in the lives of those who come to the Conference.

The last few months, the Lord has been teaching me about the need to wait on Him - especially in regards to my future. So often I have become impatient, wondering why the Lord isn't allowing certain things to happen in my life, and why He IS allowing other things to happen - and He just keeps reminding me, just to be still in His presence and let Him work everything out in HIS timing. Such a hard lesson to learn, but so necessary!

With love to all,
Bethany

POEM: Keep Me

  1. In this wicked world am I,
    Watch Thou o’er me from on high;
    Keep my soul, lest I should be
    Led astray, O Lord, from Thee.
    • Refrain:
      All I am or hope to be,
      I commit, dear Lord, to Thee;
      Oh, preserve me in Thy love,
      Till I reach Thy courts above.
  2. Keep me spotless, keep me pure,
    Keep me lest the world allure;
    Keep me in Thy secret place,
    Where I e’er may see Thy face.
  3. Keep me guiltless night and day,
    Help me Thy commands obey;
    Keep me humble, let not pride
    Ever in my soul abide.
  4. Keep me gentle, let no word
    From my lips be ever heard
    That shall wound a tender heart,
    Cause a tear of grief to start.
  5. Keep me for Thyself alone,
    Nevermore to be mine own;
    Keep me in Thy favor sweet,
    In Thy grace and truth complete.
  6. -Charles Naylor

Thursday, 18 April 2013

Compassion


Compassion is definitely something that each and every one of us appreciate receiving – but so few of us can truly say that we are really compassionate towards those with whom we meet in our daily lives.

Compassion can be described as “a feeling of deep sympathy and sorrow for another who is stricken by misfortune, accompanied by a strong desire to alleviate the suffering.” (source unknown). 

Can this be said of you, whenever you see someone who is suffering – are you moved by such deep sympathy and sorrow for them, that you are driven by that sorrow to do something to relieve their pain?  Or are you the sort of person who will just ignore the sufferings of another, and just pass by – pretending that you never noticed?

I was recently convicted about my own level of compassion, and I saw that all too often, I will just ignore those who are suffering – I might just say a word of compassion to them, expressing my sorrow at their pain, but then pass on, and once they are out of sight, I’ll quickly forget what I just saw.

What brought it home to me was John chapter 9 – Jesus healing the blind man…..when Christ stopped and healed this man, He was actually on the run for His life.  If you read in the last part of John 8, the Pharisees were just about to stone Christ, and He was able to get out of the temple, and while He was escaping, He saw this blind man. 

I know that for me, if I was in that situation – I would just be running as fast as I could to get away from that temple and from those Pharisees….who cares about that blind man?!  But Jesus didn’t think that way – He had no thought of His own life, or about the fact that there were some very angry Pharisees on His heels – He saw a man in need, and He acted in compassion on that need, and gave that man healing – not only physical healing, but also spiritual healing.

That really caused me to think – what is my response to those around me, particularly the unsaved?  They are spiritually blind, and need just as much healing as the blind man of John 9.    But I so quickly just pass them by and just ignore them….more concerned with my own life, then showing compassion on them, and bringing them to the Saviour who will restore sight unto them!

Throughout all 4 Gospels, we see Christ showing compassion again and again to those around Him, and in most instances, His compassionate heart towards the unsaved resulted in the unsaved repenting and following Him!

As you look at the life of Christ, you will find that it doesn’t take much to show compassion towards someone – even something as simple as feeding the hungry, can have lasting results!

So may I encourage each and every one of you to try and show compassion to those around you today!  Even if it’s only one simple act – helping an elderly person carry their heavy bags, helping a younger sibling finish their chores, surprise your mother by doing the washing for her, or by doing the dirty dinner dishes without having to be asked!  These are simple, easy tasks that can be done in very little time – but oh the results that can come forth as a result!! 

With much love in Christ,
Bethany
xoxo

Sunday, 24 March 2013